Week 29: SK Grout
time spent understanding
it takes a month and some change of not-waiting until the process makes its way around my
body I have not heard from you I look at the moon waxing and re-read
my emails the next time I see your face your hair is a perfect blond(e)
filigree memory buckles between us like a windowed passion we are all
waiting we are all involved but the dead refuse to rise between us words strive
for sense after checking they act like opportunities generated by a computer
who can judge the rightness I look at the moon waning and interpret a change inside
not projected on my skin I extrapolate blood flow and gristle once brick now brittled
with understanding this is not a bad thing look back with a sample package
of regret then many whiskey cocktails I still cannot tell you
I cannot even write the word into this poem sometimes I content myself with pretty
combinations the blooming cobalt of the nightsky pours capacious folk songs
gather through clouds and sometimes I listen do you I look at the moon
full and red with blood and desire and think what illness love (what illness I have made of it)
SK Grout grew up in Aotearoa/New Zealand, has lived in Germany and now splits her time as best she can between London and Auckland. She is the author of the micro chapbook “to be female is to be interrogated” (2018, the poetry annals). She holds a post-graduate degree in creative writing from City, University of London, is a Poetry Editor at honey and lime and a Feedback Editor for Tinderbox Poetry. Her work also appears in Crannóg, Landfall, trampset, Banshee Lit, Parentheses Journal, Barren Magazine and elsewhere. More information here: skgroutpoetry.wixsite.com/poetry