[after i pry my body from his beautiful]
after i pry my body from his beautiful
neighborhood. after he apologizes for his
beautiful neighborhood. after he finishes the
bottle of wine on his own. after he shows
me each of his books and what they’ve
meant to him. after photographs fall out of
each book like a surprise nail into my palms.
after the photobooth film time-capsules ten
years of him and his wife pawing at
happiness. after her sitting on the couch
almost embarrassed of him. after i’m given
a tour of their daughter’s artwork turned
hallway museum. after the reasons behind
his curation. after some hand-trace turkeys
just weren’t good enough. after i worry i
might not actually survive this world much
longer. after he declares himself double-
aquarius and i silently beg the stars for
forgiveness. after they tell completely
different origin stories. after they bicker
over how the dinner is done. after my heart
loves for his wife in the most disembodied
way. how each of his words sound like he’s
captured a creature that should never be
anyone’s. how my mouth fills with disgust
washed down with refrigerator water.
crushed ice chewed nervous. after the planet
tells me ‘no.’ after his travel logs show all
the truth-beauty he thought the planet just
gave to him. after a confused tornado
decimated this one orange city block. after i
step into the house and know the cat as my
only friend. before and after the nausea of
the night i curl up into fever sleep. the new
hurts like blankets that refuse the soft.
jamie mortara is the exact amount of time it will take for neil armstrong’s “one small step” footprint to have eroded away from the sea of tranquility completely. their full length collection ‘some planet’ will be available from yesyes books this spring 2015. jamie’s website is www.jamiemortara.com.